Rough Week.

 I am so glad today is my Friday. It's been such a long week. Working the walk-in this summer is really taking a toll on me. I've also had a lot on my mind lately. I'm not sure if I actual miss my ex, or just miss what I thought he was. Either way, I don't want him back. I really just want my stuff back so I can block his number and move on with my life. It wouldn't be such a big deal, but he has a $200 hair dryer of mine, and all the alcohol I bought on the world's worst vaction. I also pissed because he and I planted potatoes, and I don't get any. I really wish I could get the past two years of my life back, and ruin things differently the next time around. Maybe instead of dating these mediocre middle aged men, I'd just get a sugar daddy. I just want to be done dating for awhile. Maybe I'll spend the rest of this year single, and start fresh in 2024. I really like this last guy I've been seeing, but I'm not mentally all in right now. I need a break. I feel like I am finally turning into someone I really like. I'm genuinely happy. I want to be selfish and focus on myself for awhile. I want to spend the remainder of my 30's doing whatever I want, and not worry about anyone else. Except Odin, and maybe my family. We have kind of drifted apart since losing dad and Jo. I want to spend this fall at Odin's middle school football games, and cheering on Drake for his senior year in football. I am going to make the next five months the best five months of my 30's. I deserve it. Happiness looks good on me. 

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